• Brittany: I hated you for what you did to me in the choir room when you ended it...
• Santana: I was trying to do the right thing...
• Brittany: I hated you...! But then when I had time to think about it I thought about how much you love me and how hard that must have been for you. And I thought: This! This is what a WOMAN looks like, this is how a WOMAN... loves. But you not telling me what you were thinking and then deciding to just end it without discussing it with me, that is not being a WOMAN, Santana!
• Santana: I am trying to give you your freedom...
• Brittany: I DON"T NEED YOU TO GIVE ME MY FREEDOM! I am a GROWN woman! I don't need you to hide from me to keep me from doing what is right FOR ME...!
• Santana: What!? Like Sam...?
• Brittany: I didn't 'DO' Sam, okay?... And don't you think that I would have rather have been with you!?
• Santana: He's got like 3% body fat! Who am I? I dropped out of college and my life has absolutely no direction...!
• Brittany: Don't you get it? No matter how rich or famous or successful you or I become... when it comes to you I'm... I am always gonna be that dumb girl who got rejected for a duet with you...You were the first person who made me feel loved and smart and worth something... YOU are my first love and I want... more than anything... for you to be my last. And you will be...
• Boom, that's how a Brittana conversation should go...

I know I don’t have many followers but I feel I owe an explanation to those that I do have as to why I haven’t been here and won’t be for a little while longer…

Things have become a little bit difficult and before I go tumbling down a road that once almost made me lose sight of everything I decided to seek help. Family problems and personal problems have started to weigh down on me and I used to think I was strong enough to overcome these on my own… sadly, this is not the case and I now pride myself on the fact that I acknowledged I needed help.

Things became a little overwhelming and I found myself struggling to cope… before turning to something I have done countless times I decided it was time for me to do what was right by me and those who surround me and get completely better.

This includes Kim… I know I hurt her and I know that many of you are angry at me for that but I am actually on good terms with her and I feel like what happens between us should be our thing and not the concern of anyone else. I know you all care for her and this is not me nullifying how much you care for her because she is an amazing person but it is me saying that our business is our business.

I just want to say to anyone out there who is listening that I know what it feels like to feel so completely overwhelmed and feel like the world is like a roller coaster going too fast for you to enjoy it. I know how it feels to feel like you are incapable of expressing yourself in the way that you want to and feel so confused that even the simplest of tasks brings panic to your mind. Please know that there are people out there who want to help you and understand what you’re going through… I am one of those and…

I am here for any of you who feel like things are too much or that you are not enough. I have had those feelings and I have come out on the other side… I am here for you to talk to… anonymously or not and I will not judge or belittle because everyone is entitled to their own problems and they can feel however they want to feel. There is no guideline to what you should and shouldn’t feel in these situations. I am here for you whether you have something on your mind or whether you just had a bad day and need someone to vent to. I am someone who has been through things that knocked the wind out of me numerous times… I am still here and even though I am relapsing I know I am still strong. Relapsing does not make you weak or a disappointment or worthless… it just means that you need a little more help to get where you’re going and I will try to help you in any way I can

Please remember that you are worth all the good things in life and that every single thing you feel is not irrelevant or misunderstood or whatever you might feel because I AM HERE and I want to help even if I’m not so perfect myself I will try to understand YOU…

Please come see me if you need any help or you just need someone to talk to… I am here, I always will be.

Stay strong and believe that good things will come to you because I PROMISE YOU THINGS DO GET BETTER.

mamatots asked: Y'all please leave Shay alone. I love her and it hurts me more to see her attacked. So please understand and stop this nastiness.

We’re just trying to work things out right now…

Anonymous asked: No matter what you're going through... what you did was inexcusable... Kim has given me advice when I needed it and she has helped through some tough stuff so she didn't deserve to be treated the way you treated her. She deserves a hell of a lot more than you and I will make sure she sees that before she goes back to someone as selfish as you. She deserves more and its about time she saw that...

I was being selfish and still am but we have talked and are working things through. I know she deserves more and that is what I am working on being because I know I need to be more in order to make sure she gets everything she needs.. trust me anon, I am trying my hardest to be everything I can be for her and that’s all I can give right now.

Anonymous asked: I hope you;re doing ok... mamatots said you were having a hard time and I jsut wanted to make sure you knew you weren't alone...

Thank you anon… that’s very sweet. I know I am not alone but that you for making dure I knew that xxxx

Anonymous asked: who is kim? and what happened? D:

Kim is a wonderful person who i care about more than anything and I hurt her…

Anonymous asked: She still talks about you alot... so if you're not a complete idiot you'll do something about it...

i am trying…

Anonymous asked: I can't believe you did that to Kim... she is incredible. Everytime I ask her for advice she is always there and you really hurt her. Are you stupid?

I know I hurt her… I said sorry…

Anonymous asked: Your sorry!?!? Well your an idiot and it just proves how stupid you are with what you did.

Look anon, I have already apologised and I am truly truly sorry. Things happen and circumstances change so… yeah.

Anonymous asked: I can't believe you did that... on valentines day too. You suck.

I made a bad decision and it will follow me for a long time… I’m sorry it happened this way… trust me.

banoffee-pie-girl-deactivated20 asked: Yeah, I heard :( But, and anons take note, it's no excuse for people to hate. So back off the girl, alright?

They’re just trying to help Kim and I know that… they have every right to be angry. I get it… thanks though :)

banoffee-pie-girl-deactivated20 asked: Hey, whatever happened happened. I'm sorry that Kim is hurt but I'm also sorry that you're hurting. I know how it feels to feel like the bad guy when deep down you just don't feel good enough in the first place. Chin up okay? :)

chin up yes :) thanks!!!! But I know what I did,.. and I did it in the worst way and on the worst day possible…

Anonymous asked: Your such a dick... do you even know how upset mamatots is?

I’ve apologised… that’s all i can give right now.

Anonymous asked: you don't deserve Kim... she is far too smart, talented and nice for you. But it still doesn't excuse the way you hurt her... in that respect you're just stupid...

I know… I didn’t mean to hurt her though… somehow i did and I will try to make it up whichever way i can

Anonymous asked: You're a bothc for hurting Kim that way...

I’m assuming you meant ‘bitch’ and if that’s the case then you’re right…i was awful and still am and I will do anything in my power to help myself not be that in the future…